So sorry to keep you guys out of the loop!
Well I moved into an apartment with the BF last May (on the weekend of my birthday) and took pictures of my new Baby dresses (which I had uploaded ages ago) and awaited the closing of both the meat market and pizza shop that I worked at.
I got a kitty back in July (7/7/07). She's old and fat and some sort of orange main coon or a red blotched long-haired tabby. She's a whiny attention whore that needs to be brushed all the time. I love her. So does the BF.
Anthony and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary on 10/4 and have been eating well even without my meat market discount. Course we still remain broke hence why I have no new outfits to show you guys (though Christmas is coming up).
I work at a costume shop but only until halloween then I'm screwed if I don't find a new job. I need 2 new jobs though so I can buy dresses.
All my free time has been driving me nuts so I've been redecorating my bedroom. I used to have a very oriental theme with deep reds and gold. now I'm going more for a victorian-country lolita theme. I'm using shades of pink (more like mauve) and browns (wood tones too) and creme whites. There's also an unavoidable presence of black since Anthony and I share the room (I can't make it too girly) not to mention the electronics are black. I also have this HUGE arm chair that's a pale green. I'm not sure if I should get a cover for it and make it match the other elements or add other things to let that green be part of the color scheme (I have a wall border that will help tie it in). So no it's not perfect but it still looks pretty.
I losted ALL of my rechargeable batteries so I haven't been able to take any pictures. I have some low quality ones on my phone but it's not quite DA worthy.
So I'm thinking I'll have to put them on my must have list (which is currently pretty full with stuff I do and don't really need). But there are atleast 2 or 3 casual lolita outfits that you guys haven't seen yet. I misses putting purdy pictures up of me outfits.
Course my obsession with lolita clothes is starting to depress me. First off it's pretty expensive to buy lolita clothes and I currently have no moneys... but that's part of the fashion, almost every lolita deals with that.
Secondly, I haven't been wanting to buy normal clothes that I need for things like WORK!! I just can't bring myself to spend money on non-lolita things.
The third thing really perplexes me because it's not my recent MO and doesn't make sense when you look at the first 2 things. I have been looking at the fashionable shoppers that come into the halloween store. Kids that dress different and unique. I used to dress very differently when I was in school. Not really any labeled fashion like goth or punk but I certainly took elements from those fashions. Well I miss dressing like that. I miss the fishnet, black eyeliner and expressive t-shirts. I somewhere along the lines of growing up starting wearing more dressy clothes and shirts that had things that I like on them like family guy, tinkerbell, comics, etc. They are my "appropriate" clothes that allow me to blend in (and work). Pretty far from the trend setter I used to be. But all my fashion energy (and money) has been put into my glorious lolita outfits. I can't help but think that it's part of this longing to be young again and well, still be in high school or even better, middle school (so long as I can keep the boobs). Course when I was in school everyone dressed the way I dress now and well, now the young kids all dress the way I used to dress. I was ahead of my time. Needless to say, I have no reason to dress that way today.
The Fourth thing that's been bothering me is the fact that people now find me difficult to shop for. My boyfriend and mother can't pick me out presents normal or lolita anymore. they think I won't like it. Honestly I'd rather they got me normal things that I need like work clothes and batteries but they know I love lolita and they want to get me lolita things but it's expensive and they are lost on what I'd like. I even narrow things down and they still make me chose and order what they will give me as a gift. It's not fun and I feel it's unfair to them. Lolita is my burden to buy, not theirs but they don't think I'll like anything else. And of course the monster in me can't show my disappointment in getting something I really wanted; for free. I really want them to have fun getting me something and for them to pick it out but most of all I don't want them to spend too much money.
I have been having trouble finding the happiness in me.
Kisses,
Manda
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